My cousin Jennifer had her baby, Addison Kate, June 12th. She is absolutely beautiful! The Lord has truly blessed our family with this new addition. Because Granny has been sick, she didn't have enough strength to hold her. Jenny brought Addy over tonight and Granny got to hold her for the first time! I had to post a picture of the moment to share with everyone. Two very special blessings in one room! God is good!Thursday, June 24, 2010
Granny and Addy
My cousin Jennifer had her baby, Addison Kate, June 12th. She is absolutely beautiful! The Lord has truly blessed our family with this new addition. Because Granny has been sick, she didn't have enough strength to hold her. Jenny brought Addy over tonight and Granny got to hold her for the first time! I had to post a picture of the moment to share with everyone. Two very special blessings in one room! God is good!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Granny is home!
Granny got out of the hospital today!!!!!!!!!! I am sooo excited that we finally have her home after a week and a half. We thought we might be losing her this time last week. She got extremely weak and refused to eat and was not herself at all. It was like someone else was inhabiting her body. She got downright mean. I am proud to say that she is totally herself again and gaining more and more strength every day. Her appetite has increased dramatically. God has really answered our prayers! I feel so blessed that she is getting better and is at home. I missed having her around. Thank you to those who lifted her, and us, up in prayer! Praise God for the power of prayer and that I get to spend more time with my extra BFF Granny!
Sunday, June 20, 2010
My first blog post!
I have decided to join the world of blogging. This is really more for myself than for anyone else. Its just a way for me to get out what is going on in my world. For me to work through the bridges that I am trying to cross in my life. Some are broken and some are whole. But, no matter what, I always make it to the other side. The bridges we cross in life mold us into who we are. So, here goes....
Three months ago my husband, Anthony, and I separated. We had been together for 8 1/2 years and married for 2 1/2. I have anxiety issues that I let take over my life. It got to the point where I didn't want to go anywhere or do anything, for fear of having a panic attack. Going to work somedays was even difficult for me to do. I pretty much got lazy with everything in my life. I guess I was kind of depressed too. I didn't want to cook or clean. I was always looking for a way out of doing things with people when they asked me to. I don't know exactly when I let the fear of anxiety take over, but it completely did. I thought that Anthony would always stay with me no matter what, so I didn't really pay attention when he told me that it was bothering him. I told myself that he would never leave me. WRONG!
When he told me that he wanted to separate, I felt like my world was crashing down around me. I moved back in with my Mom and Granny and tried to pick up the pieces of my life. I started seeing a therapist to help me with the anxiety issues. So far it has helped tremendously. I still struggle with the anxiety daily, but I am learning to handle it a different way.
As much as I hate to say it, the separation was something I really needed. If he hadn't wanted to separate, I probably would have continued the way I was. I needed to be shaken out of the funk I allowed myself to get in. I am by no means trying to justify him breaking my heart like that. But, I don't think I would have truly tried to get better if he had just come to me and told me it was bothering him.
I think too that God knew I needed to be home with my Granny right now. We just found out the beginning of May, that she has a tumor in her pelvic region. It is about the size of a softball, according to the doctors. They started her on chemo and radiation about a month ago. She stays nauseus all the time from all the medicine in her body. She got to the point that she wasn't eating much and barely drinking anything either. Last Saturday night she got so weak that she couldn't make it back to her chair from the bathroom. Mom and I decided that it would be a good idea to take her to the emergency room. The doctors said that her kidney function was way down and that she was dehydrated so they admitted her. For a few days there, we thought we were losing her. She was so weak that she couldn't finish a sentence. She was still refusing to eat and barely drinking. We finally realized that it was the morphine they put her on that was causing her to be that way. Slowly she has started eating and drinking again and is becoming more like herself. Praise God for that. My Granny is my very best friend in the whole world. She knows things that I don't even tell my very BFF. I don't know what I am gonna do when the Lord finally does call her home. I know that no matter what I will survive and be a stronger woman because of it.
I guess that is more than enough for now. I am sure my first blog post was excessively long but there was a lot of catching up to do for you to be updated on me. Thanks for reading!
Three months ago my husband, Anthony, and I separated. We had been together for 8 1/2 years and married for 2 1/2. I have anxiety issues that I let take over my life. It got to the point where I didn't want to go anywhere or do anything, for fear of having a panic attack. Going to work somedays was even difficult for me to do. I pretty much got lazy with everything in my life. I guess I was kind of depressed too. I didn't want to cook or clean. I was always looking for a way out of doing things with people when they asked me to. I don't know exactly when I let the fear of anxiety take over, but it completely did. I thought that Anthony would always stay with me no matter what, so I didn't really pay attention when he told me that it was bothering him. I told myself that he would never leave me. WRONG!
When he told me that he wanted to separate, I felt like my world was crashing down around me. I moved back in with my Mom and Granny and tried to pick up the pieces of my life. I started seeing a therapist to help me with the anxiety issues. So far it has helped tremendously. I still struggle with the anxiety daily, but I am learning to handle it a different way.
As much as I hate to say it, the separation was something I really needed. If he hadn't wanted to separate, I probably would have continued the way I was. I needed to be shaken out of the funk I allowed myself to get in. I am by no means trying to justify him breaking my heart like that. But, I don't think I would have truly tried to get better if he had just come to me and told me it was bothering him.
I think too that God knew I needed to be home with my Granny right now. We just found out the beginning of May, that she has a tumor in her pelvic region. It is about the size of a softball, according to the doctors. They started her on chemo and radiation about a month ago. She stays nauseus all the time from all the medicine in her body. She got to the point that she wasn't eating much and barely drinking anything either. Last Saturday night she got so weak that she couldn't make it back to her chair from the bathroom. Mom and I decided that it would be a good idea to take her to the emergency room. The doctors said that her kidney function was way down and that she was dehydrated so they admitted her. For a few days there, we thought we were losing her. She was so weak that she couldn't finish a sentence. She was still refusing to eat and barely drinking. We finally realized that it was the morphine they put her on that was causing her to be that way. Slowly she has started eating and drinking again and is becoming more like herself. Praise God for that. My Granny is my very best friend in the whole world. She knows things that I don't even tell my very BFF. I don't know what I am gonna do when the Lord finally does call her home. I know that no matter what I will survive and be a stronger woman because of it.
I guess that is more than enough for now. I am sure my first blog post was excessively long but there was a lot of catching up to do for you to be updated on me. Thanks for reading!
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